Birthday Blues

In a few hours, I will be turning 28.

And I’ve been doing a lot of thinking lately.

I’ve always said I won’t get past age 30. I don’t know why I said that in the past but that’s just how I feel anyway. I’ve asked the Lord that if He should take my life away, it should be on my birthday.

So. 28. Big number.

I want a REALLY GREAT birthday tomorrow. Something I haven’t had for the past few years. Last year, I did spend it with friends but looking back, I’m not sure if they had fun. Hell, I didn’t have fun because I was with an abusive boyfriend. I think I drank way too much too fast and I was asleep before anyone had gotten a buzz.

Anyway, I celebrate my birthdays with my parents (usually a lunch or a dinner) then have a party with my friends the nearest weekend to my birthday. This year, though, I’m not sure if I want the party with friends.

I’m having a crisis and it’s something that I would very much like to write about here but I can’t since it’s too personal.

So let’s focus on my hopes for my birthday:

• I hope to go to Santorini, Greece. Mostly for the scenery but I’m also hoping to be swept off my feet by an impossibly gorgeous straight man who is also sweet and kind and smart. Yes, I read way too much romance novels and watch way too many romantic movies.
• I hope to win big money in the lottery if and when I do buy a ticket.
• I really would like to get a gift-wrapped present. Something that was bought while thinking of me, just for me. You know? I haven’t gotten one on my birthday for the last couple of years. It’s always been cash from my parents and good cheer from my friends.
• World peace. Really. Sincerely. World peace.

28. I keep coming back to the number.

Sometimes, I think my twenties life could be made on to a chick-lit book. Only if I knew how it would end first. I really would love a happy ending.

So I’m 28, right? I am pretty happy with my job. It’s almost ideal. I’ve got a few trusted friends. Relationship with my parents are okay. Some would say we’re close but we have our moments as a family.

But sometimes I think what if I died? Or what if I was gone? How would things be different? Would I be missed? Will things be better or worse for some people if I hadn’t existed? I guess the main question is “What is my impact in this world?”

And “Will I always be alone?”

Yes, sometimes I feel lonely even if I am not alone. I’ve been single for four years (how about we don’t count the last one with whom I wasted almost two years) and like anyone else, I just really want to be with “The One” (cue music: dun dun dunnnnnnnnn). [While reading, please make sure to pause slightly longer than usual before “The One”. Thanks!]

Gah! Is this what aging feels like? Very emotional and very..ugh…something.

I think I may be undergoing quarter life crisis. My thoughts reminded me of the following poem:

The Quarter-Life Crisis
by unknown

It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are a lot of things about yourself that you didn't know and may or may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you do not realize is that they are realizing that too and are not really cold or catty or mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job. It is not even close to what you thought you would be doing or maybe you are looking for one and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and are scared.

You miss the comforts of college, of groups, of socializing with the same people on a constant basis. But then you realize that maybe they weren't so great after all.

You are beginning to understand yourself and what you want and do not want. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging a bit more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and add things to your list of what is acceptable and what is not. You are insecure and then secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you or you lay in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough to get to know better. You love someone but maybe love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you are not a bad person.

One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap and getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.

You worry about loans and money and the future and making a life for yourself and while wining the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!

What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.

 

I really would like to end this post on a positive note. So I thought Katy Perry would help me out a bit. The song has great encouraging lyrics and well, frankly, I think this song should be played by anyone every time things get too depressing.

 

 

Here’s to hoping I’ll get a great 28th birthday! Cheers! :)

The Week So Far

Okay, I know it’s just Tuesday but I feel like giving a summary.

To lengthen the post, let me start with Saturday, January 22nd.

January 22:

A wonderful, wonderful concert.

Everyone was great. I especially enjoyed the performance from Basil Valdez. It’s so rare to be in the presence of Pinoy musical great.

January 23:

Just stayed at home, skipped church. Lazed around the house. Finally helped my mom organize our top closets. And then watched a total of three movies on cable tv and I’m thinking if I should include all of it in my Project 260. I’m contemplating just including “Everybody’s Fine” since it’s the one I haven’t seen before.

 

January 24

Had a wonderful day at the office. Started the day with this music:

Officemates and I were laughing about this one guy. Didn’t feel like I was working yesterday.

Ended the night with B. He came over late last night and I had to literally sneak out of the house just to see him. Like I had to make sure my parents were asleep. I carefully unhinged the door and the gate. B had wanted to drive to a nearby Starbucks. I declined so we stayed by my house. It was nice having a few laughs with him. By 12:30 MN, I had to send him home. Fortunately, my parents were still asleep.

January 25

First song on the iPod was Usher’s DJ Got Us Fallin’ in Love

Then it was followed by weird songs, which seemed to have a story.

So I started with this song, right? Next couple of songs were mushy ones. By the time I was along Dela Costa, I was hearing Britney’s “Stronger” and then Fergie’s “Glamorous” by the time I was up the elevator. I laughed and asked God if there was a message in between. I would have loved to hear the response.

So right now, I’m ending the day blogging.

Let’s see…my TV’s showing this

And I have the urge to sing this song from Leighton Meester:

And still dreaming to go here:

 

Take Care, Skin!

So today, after a loooooooong time, I finally went back to Dr. Stephen Lacson (Makati Med, Room 382, I think). Wanted his advice on what to do with the acne that appeared on my cheeks soon after I started working again.

Cute doctor. And I think it’s what keeps me coming back. Haha! :) Doesn’t hurt that he’s nice too.

Anyway, so these are what I need to make my skin clear.

The Glytone Facial Cleanser is really good and really worth your money for Php 1700. You’re supposed to use a pea-sized amount and it goes a really long way. It’s bubbly too, just the way I like my soap. :) My first bottle lasted me 7 months.

The two white bottles there are the Clindamycin with Tretinoin (Clinda-Tret) and Erythromycin. I now forget which one does what but I’m supposed to use the Erythromycin in the morning and the Clinda-tret at night.

The hydroquinone cream is for lightening dark spots. I asked for one to lighten up some scars that I have along my legs.

I think Dr. Stephen Lacson is good. Maybe you should see him if you’re having problems with your skin.

 

 

A Note To Ex-Lover 1

Dear Ex,

Whenever I hear “Just When I Thought I Was Over You”, I think of you. Even if we broke up 4 years ago and here you are, about to marry in two weeks and a kid on the way.

I want to leave you here in 2010 and I don’t want to bring all my sad thoughts of you and what could’ve been in 2011. I just want to finally get over you within the last few hours of 2010.

I just want you to know, so far, you are my greatest love. Sometimes I do think and tell myself that we wouldn’t have worked out anyway. But we wouldn’t know now, would we? But we broke up for a reason, although I can’t remember what. I just know it was a combination of our mistakes and miscommunication on both sides. But sometimes I think it was mostly because of me.

You are such a great guy. I sometimes lie awake at night wondering if I’ll ever meet someone who will love me like you did and treat me like you did. You treated me like your queen. And I know you’re giving the same treatment, if not more, to your fiancee.

I don’t know if we will ever be friends like we were before we even thought of becoming a couple. So far, whenever we get together with our friends, I am not really comfortable and I’m reminded that it would’ve been easier to have stayed together and how comfortable it was. And to be honest, I’m not really looking forward to that get together we talked about having recently. I don’t think I want to spend any more time with you. Spending time with you just brings back memories of what was and things that could’ve been.

I will forever cherish the time we spent together and you will always be my yardstick, until Mr. Perfect-for-me comes along.

Wish me luck as I wish you much happiness in the future with your future wife and child.

Sincerely,

 

 

Vacation Leave!

I am so happy to be blogging again. I’m on first mandatory leave since I started working for my new company. I get another one and a half days off after the Christmas. After that, I’ll have to work really hard because the team and I will be doing the year-end reports. That’ll probably take up the whole night.

Hmm…what else has been going on with me? Nothing much. I’ve still been watching my favorite shows. So let’s have a little run-down:

Gossip Girl – Hmm.. Yes, Juliet Sharp was really annoying but she did have a reason. But I’m not saying that it’s a good enough reason to try and destroy Serena. Oh, and who didn’t love the little twist about Lily van der Woodsen? Turns out she was the reason why Ben Sharp (now we find out that he’s Serena’s teacher at the boarding school) is in prison. Sneaky bitch. Plus the fact that she’s trying to sell Bass Industries as quietly as possible. She deserves whatever’s coming to her. By the way, I’m still not loving the Dan and Serena pair. I’d prefer that Serena be with Nate. Oh wait, maybe we’ll see Nate mature a little. Then we can see that pairing happen.

The Vampire Diaries – Very nice cliffhanger. We won’t see a new episode until January. I just have to say Michael Trevino’s acting here was very much on target. I could see the pain he was undergoing. The pain in the transformation scenes weren’t forced. Caroline and Tyler…there may be something there worth exploring. Let’s see who she chooses.. Matt or Tyler. Elena and Stefan together again…Yes! Damon and Rose are not good together. I think Damon needs someone as badass as he is.

Glee – I hope Charice shows up soon. I hope Kurt moves back to New Directions with Darren Criss’ character. I hope Rachel and Finn work out their issues soon and get back together. And wasn’t that a tear-jerking scene near the end of their Christmas episode? Artie walking! Yay!

Burn Notice – I’ve finally finished Season 3. Onward to Season 4.

Family Guy – I’m hoping to watch the latest episode tonight, if not tomorrow.

White Collar – almost done! I’m about to watch the second to the last episode of Season 2. Can’t wait for Season 3 to start.

Spartacus – I’ve just started to watch this. There might be some potential here. I’ve noticed that it’s like “300” on TV. I wish great health towards the actor who plays Spartacus and hope that he overcomes his cancer.

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Okay, for non-TV related events:

I got myself the latest iPod touch after months of indecision between the iPod touch and the Blackberry Bold 9700. I had the iPhone 4 in mind but figured that since it’s a 2-in-1 gadget and should I lose it, I’ll be losing not one, but two things: my phone and my music player.

My next goal is the Blackberry Bold 9700. I’m saving that for my birthday.

Yes, I know I posted earlier that I’ll be getting the BB 9700 but because of Globe Telecom’s LOUSY CUSTOMER SERVICE, I’ve decided to wait. More on Globe’s bad customer service as soon as they get my issue resolved.

Right now, what I’m doing is blogging while I get my iPod software updated to 4.2. And based on my internet speed, the counter says that I still have 3 hours to go. So what I’ll probably do is be busy with downloading the album covers and filling in the missing data from my iTunes music.

Anyone can recommend a better ISP?

What else? I’m enjoying my work so far. My new team mates have been great so far. Charls will be joining us next year and I’m looking forward to it.

Hopefully I’ll be able to get my parents a great Christmas gift soon. I’ll probably do some Christmas shopping tomorrow after work. I really don’t want to do some shopping after the 15th, the day being a payday for most people. It’ll be traffic hell, for sure.

That’s it!

 

 

The Week In Review

So, let’s see…

November 1 – I went to work while people who work in non-BPO environments were on holiday leave. Work was okay. I wasn’t bored.

November 2 – I still went to work and was almost late. Nothing exciting here. Tried to download/stream the latest episode of Gossip Girl but couldn’t.

November 3 – Experienced overtime at the office. Worked 4 more hours than usual. Tried to go home before 9 PM so I could catch Glee. Found out that there was no new episode of Glee. Tried to stream Gossip Girl’s “War of the Roses” again.

November 4 – Had lunch with Charls. Claimed my DKNY giveaway from Nuffnang. Spent time with my good friend Rolls. Had a great time catching up. Watched “War of the Roses”. That whole peace treaty thing with Blair and Chuck? So great. Serena falling into old patterns, what else is new? And then the ending scene with Chuck and Blair making out? Epic. Then downloaded Hellcats’ “Back of A Car”. The whole Marti losing her virginity to Dan and Savannah finding out about it the night she decides to give up her virginity to Dan is major friend drama. The kind of drama I’ve been waiting for the show to produce since it came out.

November 5 – Went to work. Went to Glorietta for my NBI clearance renewal. Thankfully, I was done in a few minutes. Grabbed some take-out from Wendy’s. Hailed a cab to go back to work. Chatted with Charls. Talked to my boss Helen about Charls. And then, we had a freakin’ fire drill. We had to go down using the stairs ALL THE WAY from the 24th floor! Then we had to “wait out” the fire by more than an hour so I to extend an hour more at work just to compensate for the hour missed. Not that my boss required it of me. There were just some reports that needed to be done by Monday. Downloaded The Vampire Diaries’ “Rose”. Great, great episode. And there were two sweet Elena and Damon moments. Now, don’t get me wrong. I’m a big Stefan-Elena fan. But the moment Damon said “I love you” to Elena…I don’t know. I wish they’d get together for at least a season and then Elena goes back to Stefan. :)

And that’s how my week went. Oh, and somewhere along the week, I found out that Blake Lively and Penn Badgley broke up after three years of dating. Apparently, it’s because Penn wasn’t ready to put a ring on it.

 

I Don’t Know How To Shop

I really don’t.

I got a total of 8 pieces of clothing plus a black bag, 3 bars of chocolate and a pair of tweezers to replace my “lost” one. It’s in quotation marks because I’m sure that my old ones are here somewhere and I’m just too much of a lazy MFB to go looking for it.

And you know how much I spent? I better not disclose the real amount since my mom reads this blog sometimes. But here’s a clue: it’s way too much that I became eligible for a 0% interest payable in 6 months promo for cardholders from SM. Cashier looked incredulous when I said I’d rather charge it straight. She was wide-eyed and asked again if I wanted to pay for it in installments. I really didn’t care because, thank God, I have the means to pay for it with or without an upcoming job and I really was becoming too sleepy. I got tired from trying on so many blouses and slacks and the temperature inside SM was so cool.

Anyway, if I knew how to shop and if I wasn’t so lazy, I’d probably be able to buy more with what I spent. You’ll see why. I’d probably do better in shopping for electronics than most girls but still behind guys in that department. I’m the type of girl who spends money on gadgets rather than clothes.

But maybe this will change now that I’m in the morning shift. I really couldn’t shop back when I was in last company. I was in the night shift. Plus, I could wear jeans starting Wednesday night.

   

See my blouses? It’s basically the same blouse, just in different colors. LOL. So now I’m wishing the following:

• I was 30 lbs lighter.
• I had more fashion sense.
• I wasn’t lazy when it comes to shopping for office wear.
• I had a fashionista friend with me to go shopping with (and probably would’ve saved me money by pointing me to the direction of great finds at more affordable prices).

So I figure I now have a total of 7 button-down blouses and 3 pairs of slacks to mix and match, in compliance with the office dress code, something which I am most uncertain of because I remember going there one Tuesday afternoon and the guys I was going to work with were in jeans and sneakers. On the positive side, I get to have more clothes. But I can be so boyish that I’d end up matching the blouses with a pair of jeans and maybe some heels or sneakers.

And I think my mom will be raiding my closet soon. Again. Which means I really have to slim down so my new clothes won’t fit her. *Evil laugh*.

Ok. Next on my list is a pair of Spanx.

Hmm…now, how to get them here soon?

 

Good Luck Me

From “Good Luck Chuck”.

I am the female version of it. 2 out of 5 boyfriends married the girlfriends they had after me. Another one is planning his wedding soon – to his girlfriend after we broke up. And that makes it 3 out 5.

This might be good news to Most Recent Ex. It simply means he might be able to find someone in Dubai who can make him truly happy and be able to love him because of what he can and cannot be. And if that happens, he will be the fourth.

Yes, I’m feeling a little loser-ish. I convince myself that the reason why I haven’t stayed with any of these 5 guys is because they weren’t for me. Or maybe they were but we just couldn’t make it work due to immaturity from both sides. Of course, I can’t convince myself all the time. Sometimes, I concede that it may be wholly my fault and sometimes I think it’s wholly their fault.

But the good news for me is that I will totally get a hot husband (as in male version of Cam played by Jessica Alba in the movie) in the future. This future hot husband will totally kick all ex-boyfriends’ ass when it comes to looks and smarts and humor and loyalty and commitment to moi.

Lord, please haste the day I meet this totally hot future husband so I get to be with him soon.

To future husband: just so you know, we’re totally getting a maid because I know nil about house chores except for cooking rice in the kaldero and washing dishes. And unless you want unclean and unironed clothes, to eat carbonara and paksiw na lechon and/or take out everyday of your life with me, you will totally think that it’s a great idea to have a maid. :) Plus, think of all the fun things better done than chores. LOL.

 

Blah Blah Blah

This is going to be a nonsense post. So please, if you don’t wanna waste time, move on to another blog. Come back when I have something that interests you.

So I went to Humana today for my medical exam as required by my new employer. Met a cute, tall guy who spied that I was pretty much holding the same permit slip he was holding. No introductions were done. He’s going to be an agent and will start his 2-month, 100K-bond worth of training by Monday. He seemed straight. When he started talking to me, I just pretty much answered his questions but his cuteness got me distracted from the text message I was composing.

He was sweet too, or well, chivalrous. When he saw that there were no chairs left for me to sit on while waiting for out turn at the drug testing center, he came over to where I was standing and said that I should take his seat. I politely refused and thanked him. He insisted and another chair became vacant. So I suggested we take our seats. Unfortunately, someone beat him to one of the seats and he was left standing.

As soon as I was done, I noticed he was still sitting in the waiting area. I asked him if he was done and he said that he wasn’t done with the medical history and check up thing, which I found weird because there was a good five-minute wait between us when we were first called for our medical check up and he was called first. Plus he was called first for the drug test. So I said that I’ll be leaving and he said “Ingats”. I doubt I’ll be seeing him around the new company. I don’t even know his name. Not interested too. I think recent ex-boyfriend made me realize that everyone really has baggage and that it is possible to not see your special someone for 30 days at a time even if you work for the same company.

And somewhere in between the whole story above, I got a little of my pee on my shirt. Stupid cup slipped. Good thing the whole thing didn’t spill or else I’d have to wait until I needed to pee before getting out of there. And, it would’ve been HUMILIATING to have to explain how my shirt got wet.

Grabbed an Army/Navy lunch. Tried to make a friend jealous of my lunch, but he didn’t care, so that obviously backfired. I got a breakfast burrito and some onion rings. The breakfast burrito wasn’t as good as the steak burrito I had the first time. After realizing that my meal was both fattening and artery clogging, I got me some Bo’s Hot Tea. Rainforest and Lemon something. It’s really good. I carried that around with me while I was scouting Glorietta for the most affordable iPod Touch. Almost bought a 4th generation 32 GB iPod touch. I wasn’t that excited to get it. Probably because it had no radio feature. And I want a radio feature just in case I get tired of more than 900 songs in my collection. I didn’t buy one obviously but as I was driving home, I was regretting my decision a little.

Oh well.

So, I’ll probably start working on the 25th, the day when my parents are gonna be home the whole day. Makes me sometimes wish that I was working for a regular company and not in the BPO industry. But seeing my paycheck makes it almost worth it. :) Anyway, with me working soon, I hope to have updates on my favorite shows still and more importantly, I hope to be able to update this blog regularly, if not everyday.

 

Regretful Thoughts On A Hot & Humid Night

I need to get off Facebook. Seriously.

Sometimes, I worry and get stressed about being 27 and boyfriend-less. And I worry about my career – if I’m making the right choices or if I’m unknowingly making the wrong ones.

I know I have some hang-ups. Sometimes, I worry about those too, wondering if I’m doing enough to make sure that my past doesn’t affect my present and my future.

When I think about it, I think it all began in high school. I may have been sort of bullied. And it may have been my fault even. I wanted to be liked by the popular kids. And I think that was a big mistake. High school is definitely something I’d re-do if I had the chance to and change A LOT of things.

And I hated high school so much that I don’t have any plans on attending any reunions.

College was fun. Met friends who would turn out to be my closest friends even up to now. College is something I’d like to re-do just because it was fun.

If I knew then what I knew now, I probably would’ve done things differently. I sometimes wonder how those choices that I could’ve made would affect my life today.

Don’t get me wrong. I’m pretty happy and I feel blessed.

I just think I could’ve made better decisions and better choices. And I sincerely hope and pray that I will make better decisions starting today.

Turning Mexican…

Entitled as such only because I’ve been craving burritos and quesadillas for the last few days.

I finally found my new favorite Mexican food place. It’s Army/Navy Burgers & Burritos over at Glorietta 5.

Well, obviously, they serve burgers and burritos. Oh and onion rings. And fries. And quesadillas. Yum-my!

Last night, I had dinner with my cousin and Kris, my best friend’s brother-in-law, to talk about, guess what, life insurance. I really am growing up if conversations over dinner include life insurance.

Anyway, I was planning to get on some life insurance only because I really need to be forced to save money instead of splurging it on, say, an iPhone or a Blackberry (leaning towards an iPhone, by the way, because I realized I wouldn’t be forced to go into an unlimited surfing plan – unlike the Berry. Or so I think). And I thought it would be a great idea for my cousin, who’s a single mom, to get something just in order for her to be forced to save.

While she and Kris talked, I wolfed down my Steak Burrito and onion rings. Man, those were great. I tried my cousin’s chicken quesadillas and they tasted great too. The Libertea iced tea was as good as they said.

I have to say I really enjoyed the food there…now, how to convince the parents that it’s a good enough place for Sunday lunch? 

 

 

HIATUS

Since I don’t know what to write and I’ve lost my interest in summarizing TV episodes of my favorite shows, I’ve decided that my blog and I will go on an indefinite hiatus.

I want something more out of this blog. I just don’t want to write about trivial stuff. Yes, this was supposed to be a blog about what I like but I’m finding it hard to write about certain stuff. Maybe because I’m not liking them as much. And the world wide web is already full of websites and blogs like mine, if we’re talking about TV episode recaps and spoilers.

I need to recharge.

And I will be on hiatus. Indefinitely.

But I already said that.

Of Religion and the RH Bill

I was watching the last two episodes of the series “The Tudors”. There was a scene wherein Bishop Stephen Gardiner presented a warrant of arrest to Lady Hartford, accusing her of heresy. A person would be considered a heretic if you believed in something that strayed even the slightest bit away from the Catholic faith.

But I digress. Lady Hartford told the Bishop that the warrant will never be served because she knows his secret. The secret had something to do with the Bishop embezzling land and money from King Henry VIII, a crime that the Bishop would certainly be punished for. This specific crime was also true of Cardinal Wolsey, former Lord Chancellor to the same King. These two put a lot of “heretics” to torture or death or anyone they thought had to be removed. They were ruthless. They would sometimes advise King Henry about something that would serve personal interests. And they were supposed to be pious men.

And it occurred to me. I am sure that the Wolsey and Gardiner are just two of the priests of the Catholic persuasion during the Renaissance who had the King’s ear. Surely, with plenty of other kings and plenty of other Bishops and Cardinals who advise these kings on matters of trivia and utmost importance, they would have enjoyed certain benefits/advantages from the kings they serve. My point? These guys are wealthy, either secretly or openly. Their wealth may have been either passed on to family members, if they had them, or returned to the state for whatever reason. And I know that kings at the time may have offered pieces of land to the Pope as well.

By the time I finished with the two episodes, I decided I was done with the Catholic faith and that I am almost disgusted with it because of some people who ran and are currently running it. My decision did not come from just two episodes of The Tudors. It didn’t come from four seasons of the series. The feeling of disgust comes from news all over the world, especially those coming from our country, about priests having sexual relations with women and/or children. They’re priests, for heaven’s sake. They shouldn’t be perverting themselves.

My distaste comes from observation of them feeling high and mighty, feeling the need to meddle with the affairs of the state when there is a SEPARATION between the church and the State.

Yes, I understand that we cannot forget our morality but is it also possible that our so-called “morality” is keeping us from progressing because of old-school views on important issues?

So I think that the CBCP (Catholic Bishop Conference of the Philippines) should just butt out of the Reproductive Health Bill.

From what I understand, the Catholic leadership here in the Philippines are against the following:

• Pre-marital sex
• Extra-marital sex
• Gay sex
• Solo sex
• Porn
• Sex with unnatural family planning (condoms, IUD, etc)
• Vasectomy
• Ligation
• Sex for fun
• Sex not intending to procreate

Okay. So I’m with them on the first three. Yes, while I have gay friends, I still think that sex should be between a physiological man and a physiological woman. The others are just plain ridiculous.

I think family planning using the “rhythm method” aka “natural family planning” is just plain unreliable. A woman who has an irregular menstrual cycle cannot determine when she’ll be fertile or not.

My stand is this: Every one should have a choice. A married couple should be able to enjoy sex for fun. And since the reality is a lot of people are engaging in pre-marital sex, condoms should be accessible to prevent sexual diseases, not only pregnancies.

Taking it to another level, I am even pro-abortion only in the following cases:

• If continued pregnancy will harm the child and eventually the mother
• Rape survivors should be able to have a choice and not be condemned for it. If they decide to keep the child, fine and good. If they decide that they don’t want a reminder from the painful and humiliating experience, they should be able to do it PROVIDED that the crime is well-documented (police blotter at the very least).

And this is what I have to say about the current events that we have here. 

  

 

My Dog Is Missing

My favorite dog has gone missing. We think she’s been stolen since the bitch is too damn nice.

After eating, we usually let her and her mom go out to do their business. The mom, M, is more aggressive and we keep her on a leash. My favorite dog, B, is nicer and usually steers clear of strangers. She’s very sweet. And I miss her already.

I was supposed to do a The Vampire Diaries post but I’m just too bummed out. B turned 9 this year. I just wish she would come home.

 

Please come home B. I miss you already.

UPDATE:

She was found by one of the roving guards here in our village, 10 blocks from where we live. The theory is that someone lured her because she’s pretty, hoping she’d get pregnant by a male dog. That’s the theory because B never steps onto the edge of our street and onto the main street without me or my dad. And if she would be running, it would be going toward further into the street and into the dead end and not outside of our street.

Good thing that the guard still rang our bell even if it was already 1 am. Poor thing looked nervous running around. Since she’s old, her senses may be a little weak and couldn’t recognize me and my dad when we were calling her. Finally, she let my dad put a leash on her and we were on our way home. You could tell she was really happy about seeing us and going home. Her pace went faster as we turned to our street. She almost ran going home. It was pretty sweet and amusing.

But to the person who attempted to steal my dog, I wish you’d have bad luck as a pet owner, always, or until you regret what you did.

 

 

Tagged!

I suck at this tagging game.

I don’t have a lot of friends who blog and I don’t have a lot of online friends. So maybe I’ll tag some people and hopefully, they rise to the challenge.

Tagged by my new online friend, Toni.

1. If you had a chance to go back in time for 24 hours, where would you go and why? I have several timelines in mind. It just depends on what I want to change in my present. :) 

2. What material possession can you not live without? My books, my cell phone and my laptop.

3. What's your first thought in the morning and last thought at night? “Thank you God for this day” and whatever I’m watching/reading before I fall asleep.

4. If you were given the liberty and opportunity to pursue a new career, what line of work would you delve into? Probably law.

5. If you were to win the lottery, how long would you wait to tell others? A long time! I would probably plan a great vacation to Greece with my friends and pay for everything. They would of course ask where I got the money to fund the vacay, so that’s the only time I would tell.

6. What aspect of your personality is most peculiar to you? I explain a lot.

One last question:

Is there anything exciting about yourself that you would like to share? It’s not exciting but I see myself as a nerd.

Tagging Charls and Lyn.

Questions:

• If you had one super power, what would your power be and how will you use it for the first time? How will you use it for the last time?
• What is the one thing that people usually don’t know about you?
• Name three things that make you cool.
• Which do you prefer, stupid jokes or intelligent jokes and why?
• If you would be sentenced to prison for 10 years, what one book/DVD would you bring with you to read/watch everyday until you get out of prison?

 

Of Interviews, Dates and Ice Cream

As some of you may know, I’ve been unemployed for a little over a month now. I’ve left my old company to explore new opportunities and new possibilities.


So, of course I've been looking for jobs. I've been to several interviews. I've received several invitations to final interviews and I've yet to receive feedback from them. To be very honest, I get a little nervous during interviews. For me, interviews are like going to blind dates – somebody sets you up (Recruitment team), you talk, ask questions, get to know each other a bit to see if you’re a good fit. Say one little wrong thing and it’s goodbye. If your date (the hiring manager) thinks you’re interesting enough, you get a second or third or fourth date. If you feel like you like each other a lot, you enter a relationship by means of signing a contract (the job offer) stating that you now have a commitment to each other.


But see, I’ve never been good with dates. I find them a little stressful and nerve-wracking. This is probably why I’m a serial monogamist in terms of my career and my personal relationships. You have to be intelligent, witty and decent looking. Yes, I’m all three (wink, wink) but I guess I just haven’t found my perfect match (hopefully, soon because I don’t think my pride will let me be jobless for more than a few months).


To relieve my stress from all the job-hunting I’ve done so far, I got me some ice cream. Two pints of ice cream, actually. One is Haagen-Dazs Caramel Biscuit and Cream and the other…well, let’s just say I’ve already written about it and it’s posted somewhere in this blog. :)


Anyway, I’m glad I got Haagen-Dazs Caramel Biscuit and Cream because it is simply dee-vine!! Yes, I know how to spell “divine” but I needed you to read “divine” as “dee-vine” because yes, it was that good (kind of like how people say “uh-mazing” on the internet). Delectable, creamy and just the right amount of sweetness. Yes, it is caramel but it’s not overly sweet caramel. It was soooo good that I had a hard time sharing it with my parents. In the end, I let them have a couple spoonfuls just so they would understand what I was raving about.


The taste is just so…comforting. I don’t know if there’s any other way to describe it. I dunno if it’s because it is ice cream (being comfort food in general) but I felt really…comforted, relaxed. And I’m not kidding. Like I really feel better after eating this particular ice cream. Like if this particular ice cream became a live person, this one will be your best friend giving you the best hug ever!


So I hope the following pictures will let you know how much I absolutely enjoyed Haagen-Dazs Caramel Biscuit and Cream. Hover your mouse over the pictures for some (cool) captions. :)

 
 
 

So you guys know what to give me if I feel a little too depressed and don’t want to take me out for some drinks. :)

But whether I get my dream job/dream guy or not, I will be eating Haagen-Dazs Caramel Biscuit and Cream. It’ll just be a matter of whether I’ll be celebrating or not. :)

Ben and Jerry’s Ice Cream

I’ve heard about Ben and Jerry’s ice cream in TV shows and movies. So when I went to the US last 2006, I resolved to try one of the flavors mentioned.

Chunky Monkey.

Chunky Monkey, as described in the Ben and Jerry’s website, is banana ice cream with fudge chunks and walnuts. It is simply delicious.

So imagine my delight that while I was hunting for the special Haagen-Dazs ice cream (more on that later) when I saw Chunky Monkey in the freezer of Rustan’s Market.

It was, as my friend Charls would say, like seeing a unicorn.

Instead of spending less than PHP 500 for that Haagen-Dazs ice cream, I ended up spending PHP 800 for both PINTS of ice cream.

Oh well. Back pay will soon be in my hands. :)

I can’t wait to eat this!

The Weekend That Was

Wow. I’ve been neglecting my blog.

I haven’t been able to update this blog due to a very busy Friday. I had two final interviews last Friday and I think they both went well. If accepted, I’m pretty much torn about which company I’ll choose.

Rolls came by my house and we had dinner by having Jollibee deliver some food. Went to Ortigas for Rhia. Had a really great time getting drunk. Went home at around 5 am and slept until 8 am.

I don’t know why I woke up so early. Lunch was at 2 pm and consisted of Breaded Fish Lauriat from Chowking. Slept until 5 pm to catch Disney Channel’s High School Musical marathon.

Yes. I’m geeky and lame that way.

By Sunday morning, I was sleepy at Church. Lunch was from Chowking. Again. Then by 4 pm, I was off to Rolls’ to pick her and Rhia up to go to Totoy’s dad’s wake. Condolences to the Llacuna Family.

Went to Pier One after. That was not fun at all.

As soon as we ditched two other people from our “party”, we went to Le Souk’s at BF Homes. I must admit it was a pretty nice place. I loved the Greek Nachos and their hummus. Kiara and Jestin, our two new friends, were tons of fun and did a good job in recommending the hummus. We had four pitchers of Oasis, shared mainly among 4 girls. The guys had beers.

Went back home at 3 am.

See? I was busy. That’s why there’s no update last Friday, Saturday and Sunday. No Comics Sunday. Oh well.

Anyway, I had fun. I would rather be out with them than staying in here at home blogging.

This has been a great year for me and my friends. I’m really glad about that.

 

Gloomy Weather Makes Me Feel A Little Sentimental

It’s been an eventful couple of days. Mostly a lot of days involving bus accidents and deaths. There’s the bus that went over hill somewhere up north. Then there’s Melody Gersbach’s accident down south. And the internationally known tragedy resulting in the deaths of 8 or 9 Chinese nationals at the heart of Manila with ex-police officer Rolando Mendoza at the center of it all. Then we have one international success whose giver is endlessly mocked for her “major major” mistake.

I’ve noticed that it rained every afternoon and/or night since Sunday. It may have been because of all the tragedy that has and will come to pass.

My condolences again to my cousin, Toti Rocha, for the loss of his beloved girlfriend, Melody. As mentioned in my previous post, Melody’s gone too soon. I promise not to bring up her name during family reunions or rescue you from the conversation if it ever comes up. :) I have been fortunate to have none of my previous boyfriends die on me while we were in the relationship. I can only imagine the grief that you are going through. It will be tough. But please keep in mind that though the pain of losing her will not be forgotten, what you feel now will lose intensity over the course of time. I worry about you during your time of grief. Keep in mind that you have a family too and it is best to move on, when you’re ready.

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In other news, a bird dropped its warm, gooey crap on my arm.

It’s supposed to be a sign of good luck.

So hopefully, I have good luck and the blessings of God tomorrow.

  

 

Being Jobless is Dangerously Fun

I have to admit it and I hate to do it but I must admit that being jobless is dangerously fun.

I’ve been doing nothing but watching my favorite TV shows and surfing the net and posting on this blog.

I’ve been getting a good night’s sleep and I’ve been able to exercise at least twice a week --- two things I’ve never been able to do while I worked for two years on the night shift.

My dream job would either be

• travelling around the world reviewing luxury hotels and getting to experience life in other parts of the world

or

• get paid to watch TV and then blog about them

If only I could live off my parents…but then again, my own pride won’t let that happen. I just happen to be enjoying bumming around, reading my favorite books, doing a little house chores (yes, believe it or not, I enjoy them but emphasis on a little), exercising at home and taking care of my dogs.

I’m seriously considering working at home. I guess my only concern about doing that is not being able to meet as much as people as I would compared to working in a regular office. However, my friend Janice refutes my theory saying that her cousin works from home and she gets to meet new people since they hold weekly meetings. That sounds so good to me but I figure that I’m young and I need a little more exposure.

Or maybe I should make an extra effort of going out should I choose to fully work at home.

But I digress. Bumming around is dangerously fun. I could feel the workaholic in me melting away, inch by inch every day that I’m here at home, reading my books and watching my favorite shows.

I have an interview tomorrow. I feel torn about it. Part of me wants it because I need money/income so I won’t be mooching off my parents. Part of me wishes I won’t get called for a second interview because I don’t really want my bum life to end just yet.

Oh well. I guess I really can’t have my cake and eat it too (this is a stupid expression, by the way, but I’m using it for lack of a better expression).